It seemed I've grown from an inexperienced rookie to a hardened, seasoned tech and, I feel as I have survived. Although, I don't feel like I've the negotiating skills like some of the day staff like Sabrina and Jose. Sometimes, I think they're imposing and pushy, not my style. I think I have my own, but I have not let people get on my nerves so easily. I have to think of it as water sliding off a duck's back.

I was in that room with Lori the nurse manager, Marla the discharge planner, and Kathi and Carol; two night shift charge nurses. They were asking me all sorts of questions: it was like going up for a board to get my license. Early this morning, I got a call from HR asking me if I'd accept a three dollar increase in pay and the night lead position. After going over it meticulously, I agreed to their terms. I don't see where Jose gets the "negotiation with them part". And its MORE than a dollar pay hike! I can handle that cuz even if I were to take extra shifts on days, my pay carries over and I don't lose any money. Yeah. I can live with that.

On another note; I had an encounter with a psychotic patient Sunday night. The patient ended up being chemically restrained but not after he had to be taken down by three security personnel, four big hospital staff and myself. When he came rushing at me, he swung and I used the thrust of his punch and deflected it quickly to where I rammed it up against his back and then slammed him into the wall.

I couldn't hurt the guy since he was enraged and came at me. Kathi had to get in between both of us or fists would've really been flying and I wouldn't be able to control myself. You see, I like to fight, I like to engage in confrontation. Once my adrenalin kicks in, reasoning goes out the window. Yet, I have enough discipline to control my actions since I'm in a professional working environment. Yeah. I like to engage in physical combat even though, at times, I do get hurt. When I slammed the full force of that 300 lb. man into the wall, the other patients were standing around from a distance. But later that night, after the adrenalin left me, I felt a sharp cramp in my left calf muscle. I had to go to a massage therapist so she could work the tight muscle out. Its still sore as of this writing. Even the bigger patients saw our scuffle. After the patient was knocked out, I asked the charge if the LPN in the Annex could take my place and we switch places. Even though she refused to let me on the unit, she said, "I'd rather have you watch my back any ole day! So no. You're not going anywhere, buddy".

I got a kick out of that. :twisted:

Hot MILF nurse Amanda was telling me that its easy to do take downs, but its much harder to talk a person down which is more rewarding cuz nobody gets hurt. I admire her for that cuz not only can she talk anyone down of a hostile sitch, she's got the brains and beauty to do it. We're going over to her house tomorrow; she's on a two week vacation from work cuz her husband's on his military field training.

Pero como soy un poco cabezón no me rendí a la primera. Lo primero que se me ocurrió para deshacer la corrupción de la tarjeta es utilizar la utilidad de chequear sistemas de windows de toda la vida (chkdsk/scandisk):

Así que abrí una consola haciendo click en ejecutar desde el menú de inicio y escribiendo cmd e intro y una vez en la pantalla negra "chkdsk /F G:" donde G: es la letra que corresponde a mi unidad (en C: el windows, en D: el DVD-Rom, y en G: el lector de tarjetas)

En cuestión de segundos me detectó un montón de errores y vínculos huerfanos y me preguntó si quería arreglarlos, a lo que respondí que sí y a continuación me preguntó si quería convertir los vínculos perdidos en archivos y también le respondí que sí.

Esto me creo una carpeta de nombre found.000 con un montón de archivos .chk que pasé a renombrar a .NEF y una vez hecho ya podía ver todas las previsualizaciones de mis fotos perfectamente. Por un momento respiré aliviado y contento, pero... mi gozo en un pozo. Al tratar de abrir las fotos, todos los programas me daban error del tipo "bad end of file" aunque extrañamente si podía ver las previsualizaciones en algún programa como Nikon View perfectamente a pantalla completa, pero al ir a exportar me extraía un archivo (jpg, tiff o lo que fuera) al que le faltaba parte de la imagen, en casi todas más de la mitad.

Muy raro, muy raro. Así me tiré hasta las dos de la mañana, pensando que lo único que me quedaba por hacer era una captura de pantalla de la previsualización del RAW a pantalla completa...

Pero esta mañana investigando en google se me ha ocurrido ver si existía algún reparador de archivos RAW corruptos sin mucha esperanza. He pasado toda la mañana tratando de encontrar algo rebuscando en foros, enlaces... probando programas hasta que al final con una busqueda de google he llegado hasta un sitio donde recomendaban un programa (Preview Extractor) para extraer las previsualizaciones de los RAW lo he bajado y ha funcionado perfectamente

No he conseguido recuperar mis RAW que guardaré criogenizados por si en el futuro descubro algo para repararlos, pero por lo menos tengo unas copias en JPG de las fotos a resolución completa, tal como los hubiera sacado desde el RAW lo cual no es arreglo, pero es consuelo por lo menos no he perdido todo.

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Enlaces de utilidad:

• Preview Extractor

Recent roadtrip taking us to the Gila Wilderness in the Gila National Forest, New Mexico, where Dr. Girlfriend and I enjoyed soaking naked with other people who were also naked, in the hot springs there. Sorry, no naked people in this video cuz my suckass camera can't take night shots.

Jesh ... I'm currently perving on Lee-Anne Liebenberg after seeing the movie, "Doomsday" yesterday. The dvd cover looked interesting enough so I purchased it at good ole Best Lie. As soon as I got home, I quickly inserted the movie with the anticipation seeing the tattooed hottie on the dvd cover. I must've watched the burning-victim-alive-and-cannibals-eating-him scene over a dozen times just to see Viper's face tat and expressions. Fuck all. Call me strange, but hot damn! She's HOT!

For some reason, I'm strangely drawn to carnage and human tragedy ... maybe which is why I work in a mental hospital? Maybe I have sadistic tendencies. Besides, I've always thought eating another human would taste like ... pork. And I've often wondered, would I really have the guts to eat another human being if it were up to me in a survival sitch? In my mind, I could go through with it. YEP. Most definitely. I'm all for survival of the fittest even if it means munching on another person.

Take for example, that Donner Party tragedy in the mid 1840s. I don't think i could eat a LIVE human being; they'd have to be dead first -- not a sporting thing; a survival shituation. unless circumstances called for an Eat Or Be Eaten type scenario. The thought actually fascinates me.

I think the most preferred way of eating a carcass would be to grill or charbroil it ... like in the movie. Boiling would take too much time. Perhaps ... a flamethrower ... nah. That would sear the meat with gasoline and I'd mostly be stuck drinking gas.

When I was a wee lad living in the dense tropical jungles of Guyana, South America, my family would have parties in which my father would kill a pig (even though my Dad was a doctor, we had a small farm) and we'd gut and skewer the animal on and open flame. It was a family affair. My Mom taught us kids how to cook at an early age. Back in the 70s, this was all perfectly legal cuz there are no laws in the jungle when it comes to eatins. So ... I'm thinking that maybe ... if I were in a plane crash in the mountains and there were carcasses strung about, I could probably have a grillin' to stay alive.

I hate chicken and cleaning those filthy birds is a chore. Everything DOES NOT taste like chicken: does pussy taste like chicken? Not by a long shot.

I don't eat much red meat unless I know where it comes from: I'm particular about the commercial cattle industry. Utter bastards. I'll eat red meat if its from local ranchers and my preference is medium rare; nice and juicy. I generally eat pork and fish to get protein nowadays. Damn, all this typing about food is making me hungry ...

It was a strange feeling at first ... other people looking at me totally ass naked, but then, they were completely nude also. Its also an odd feeling to be stared at by others, and not having any sexual thoughts going on in my head as my hot MILF girlfriend and I were having random conversations with other naked people. I have to say, I was uneasy at first, but then, I got over it as someone passed around a joint. There were three pools and 14 people on the first night we were there. It was that same amount of people who were also camping at our camp site. And I have to say that as much porn I frequently watch on youporn.com, not a single sexual thought entered my mind during our stay at the hotsprings conversing with other naked people. That unusual for me. And the other ladies there; the youngest were Michelle, 27, and Amber, 29, college students on a work study program, Dr. Girlfriend and I became good friends with them. Too bad I was too busy oogling at them to get pix ... but I do have them on video.

At the end of our third night there, we all became good friends talking about our lives in a setting of natural wilderness which seemed to me like being stuck on a desert island with a bunch of naked people. According to the Soaker's Bible, Gila Hotsprings is rated the BEST in the United States, mainly because its so isolated and you'd never know its location unless you were specifically looking for it.

Outside of Groom, Texas, is a sign that boasts the "Largest Cross in the Western Hemisphere". I'm thinking someone's lacking in something ...

I stayed with my family two days and nights and went immediately back roadtripping, not before I bombarded Remy with postcards from the edge. On the way back to Arizona, we went back to Gila and camped out some more before stopping by the hot springs in Truth or Consequences, New Mexico. They weren't as good as the one in Gila so on we drove to Elephant Butte. Then home. I almost hated going home. We also drove to see the Gran Quivara ruins in the middle of nowhere, close to a town, if its even called that, Claunch, NM, population; SIX. Looked more like a gathering of cattle ranchers ...

And I hiked nekkid in the wilderness and sunburnt my butt ... AARGH

Maybe next time, I'll skydive nekkid ... :twisted:

There are certain machines which are protected against this type of data corruption, by having the power supply send an interrupt to the operating system when power fails, but ordinary class PC hardware does not. (link)

John: So you're getting used to groups now? How are you with that?

Me: Meh. I'm OK with it I guess. I can do it, but I'd rather not, more like, I just hate doing it.

John: Do you feel anxious? I've noticed you've lightened up a lot. You don't seem to be the sociopath than you were when I first met you.

:shock:

I didn't think I was, but then Amanda = my hot MILF friend said yesterday, "Alain, you do know that you exhibit a lot of antisocial behaviors, right?" I love Amanda. She tells me things I don't want to hear and says things so matter-of-fact-ly. This was, after I confided in her, that I did something heinous to my punk ass neighbor downstairs and then got the woman to buy me a drink. Social engineering werkt 4 me. It was payback ... a calculated one, at best.

Junnoliek, I've never really thought about it so when I asked Kathi, she referred me to the DSM-IV. Under Antisocial Personality Disorders, I found that main characteristics include:
- deceit and manipulation are central features of Antisocial Personality Disorder

- must have had some symtoms of Conduct Disorder by age 18

- repeatedly perform acts that are grounds for arrest such as destruction of property, harassing others, stealing or pursuing illegal occupations

- may repeatedly get into physical fights or commit acts of physical assault (this excludes self defence and protecting oneself) such as wife beating or child torture / endangerment

- irresponsible work behavior

- may show little remorse for the consequences of their acts

- may be indifferent to, or provide a superficial rationalization for having hurt, mistreated, or stolen from someone

... and so on. That's just SOME of them. But it goes on to say that people with Antisocial Personality Disorder tend to exhibit frequent lack of empathy and are callous and cynical of other's feelings, rights and their sufferings; may be excessively self assured, arrogant and cocky.

This leads me to conclude that I AM NOT A SOCIOPATH, but according to my friends and coworkers -- the professionals who know me best, say that I do have SOME antisocial traits in that I often lack any remorse in my actions of harassing others; physical assaults excite me such as taking patients down or the onset of; criminal acts that will get me arrested.

But I have to say, I like children. Rug rats. Little human bugs with teeth. They may annoy the fuck out of me, but I find them amusing. Strange, eh?

I'm not a sociopath. Dammit.

:twisted:

My Saturdays have an alarming uniformity to them - wake up, eat breakfast, go and look around for some records. Yesterday I travelled to North london to check out Second Layer Records in Highgate. The shop specialises in the avant garde and noise but it does have a small  (but pretty impressive) punk/metal section. I bought the two latest (well, reissued) Corrupted 12"s and a Skullflower 7". I've long been a fan of the Japanese band Corrupted; I love the way they mix the socially aware message and imagery of older English anarcho-punk bands with a really heavy doom/sludge sound,and the fact that they hail from Japan but sing in Spanish.

Anyways, I made it home via the chaotic and sprawling tube network and decided to bake some cookies whilst listening to my new records. The recipe comes from the 'Please Don't Feed the Bears' vegan cookbook, a fantastic inspiration and resource written by somebody that can elucidate upon the pleasures of alternative music and vegan baking far more eloquently than I can. Check it out if you get the chance.

1 tsp vanilla

3/4 cup of brown sugar, same again with white sugar

2 1/4 cups flour

1 cup margerine, softened

1 bag semi-sweet vegan choc chips

1 tsp baking soda

1/2 cup apple sauce

3 Tbsp peanut butter

1 tsp sea salt

Preheat the oven to 325f. Mix the margerine, brown and white sugar, vanilla, apple sauce and peanut butter until creamy. the add the flour, salt and baking soda to the mix. Finally, add the choc chips. Place in table spoon sized dollops on a baking tray (they flatten and spread out as they cook. Bake for 9-12 minutes and leave them to harden on a cooling rack.

As the baking came to an end, I was joined by my good friend of 14 years, Fitzy. I don't think he was too impressed by the music but he certainly gave a thumbs (or paws) up to the cookies. 

Playlist:

Corrupted - Nadie EP

Skullflower/ Axolotl - 7" split

PeteF

That's what I call Merlynn. She was irritating me one day when I asked her to go ask her neighbors if I could use their plunger cuz the toilet in the backroom had stopped up. I said in a droll sarcastic manner. The nickname dawned on me cuz Merlynn likes watching "The Venture Brothers".

Anyway, on July 15th, we're going to take a roadtrip across the desert and on to my family reunion / photoshoot in Oklahoma. My family stresses me out with all their rich people toys and whatnot which is why I don't like going home. My siblings ( I'm one of six kids) now all grown, even they don't talk about work often, they like to show off the fruits of their labours. But now I got one up against them; I got a fuel-efficient car! A tiny goldfish bowl on wheels, but hey, it gets great gas mileage: 38 mpg.

Dr. Girlfriend. She cracks me up. Her cute little smirk on her 5'4 frame. And these oddball comments she makes. Since I've been putting in a lot of overtime, I don't get to see her much. Maybe twice a week. And its a strange thing: I can't sleep at my apartment cuz I get nightmares which keep me tossing and turning, having irregular sleep, whereas, when I'm with Merlynn, I have the best uneventful, rock solid, SLEEP. She says I need to have a dream catcher near my futon and is in the process of making one.

I like going to her place in the deep desert, but lately she's been having new neighbors encroaching on the once dead silence in the middle of nowhere desert. I also like going to her place cuz she has a washer and dryer so I can do my laundry for free. Plus, she loves to cook ... and I love to eat. That's purpose enough. I bought her a CO2 powered bb gun the other day cuz she was complaining that the neighbors' pit bull puppies were hanging around her yard. She has a cat that she treats like a kid. I couldn't care for the cat as long as it stays out of my way, but lately the cat and I have come to a compromise. So I guess that's a start.

I'd get rather irritated if the cat were gone and Dr. Girlfriend went into a fit about it. I like her to be happy so I can get some. I've never been with a woman who liked to be around ME cuz I have a tendancy to have a short temper. I've worked hard on controlling my anger management issues. She's a strange woman, methinks. She likes to be around me, whereas, I like being alone in my isolation and to my thoughts. She likes being alone too. But when we're together, our problems seem to dissolve. Sometimes, it great to have someone to irritate and vice versa. That is, if  you're happy with that. And I am.

Its raining outside now. I kinda miss her hanging on my arm like an ornament on a christmas tree. She doesn't do that much. The other day, we were joking around with each other and she accidentally clocked me upside my head. Totally took me by surprise. She apologized a million times for it. I felt my adrenalin filling me up and I walked into the next room. She followed me. Right then and there, I didn't want to be with her or anyone. I felt my muscles tensing. Like I needed something to hit.

But then I turned around and Dr. Girlfriend grabbed my head and pulled me to her lips. I pulled back and said, "Junno ... normally, I'd be throwing things or punching holes in things. Berserker rage. But that's all in my head now. Come to think of it, I could hurt you and no one would know cuz we're out here in nowhereland. Hell, even the neighbors wouldn't know you're hurt. I'm your main contact to the outside world."

Anyway, we made up. Normally, my quick reflexes would've kicked in and I would have avoided the slap, but it was coming from my honey bunches of oats. Totally unexpected. Hell, we don't even argue cuz most of the time she's right .... she is, after all, an RN with strong survivalistic instincts. In her past, she was a mountain woman / farmer up in the hills of Northern Idaho and people were scarce where she and her ex husband lived. She said when she divorced, she took her two kids and moved back to town, but it took time getting used to being around people and civilization.

I can relate.

   Today I'm writing about regular computer maintenance. Last year my computer crashed and burned. Literally. Something had corrupted my hard drive and was unable to reboot, not even in safe mode. Naturally i was upset.

   I took my computer to CB (Computer Boulevard) and had a tech support look at it. My hard drive was fried, which fried other components in my system. My ram, Cd drives, oh yeah $2,000 gone. He asked if i did regular maintenance on my computer besides what Windows has provided eg: virus/ spy ware scans, regdefrag and reg repair. My answer "NO" i had an anti-virus and i thought that was enough. Boy was I wrong.

   I had to educate myself so, for the last year and another $2,000 later that's what I've been doing, educating myself. I've trialing, testing, re-reviewing different products that help keep your computer running smoothly.

   Now before i get into the different programs that i myself recommend let me tell you a few points about myself. I'm sure 100's of people can relate to.

♦I'm in now way a computer genius (not even close)

♦I know nothing about 'The Registry'. The word alone scares me but, I do know that almost all computer techs advise AGAINST making changes to your registry unless your an expert.

♦I'm sure I'm the only one on this but, i knew nothing about anti-spy ware (yes i know it's sad)

   If you are someone who doesn't want to waste time figuring out how to safely edit your registry, like me, or risk having your computer blow up in your face i have found/ used/ tried/ tested and ABSOLUTLY love these 4 programs:

AdwareBOT 2008 will detect and remove all instances of spy ware on your computer and will prevent future infestations from occurring. Unless your system is protected with AdwareBOT 2008, your data, your privacy and even your identity are at risk.  Click Here!

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   They are all extremely easy to use, very effective, offers free scans. They are cheaper then most of the programs out there. They have user friendly interface so you won't be looking at your computer going "HUH"

   I've been using all 4 of these programs for some time now and my computer is top notch. I hope this helps anyone that is as computer inclined as i am.

HAVE A GREAT DAY =)

Jaidee

ABOUT THE DECEIT IN ISLAM

Warning – This article is for men, women and children who have the ability to think.

Human beings are born free, are Free to talk, Free to choose our friends and free to do whatever we THINK we want to do. Our laws are enshrined with all these cardinal points of various individual freedoms, especially in non-Muslim nations. And above all, the greatest freedom we have is the freedom of thought. Absolute followers cannot and will never be freethinkers. Just like sheep, they need only brainlessly follow like morons. The choices rational human beings make, are based on their individual capacity to THINK for themselves. Freedom in thought to believe in anything we want, is our greatest asset. If we think something is not to our needs, we can rethink and are free to change our minds. It is up to the rational thinking person to THINK and come to a conclusion and act as concluded. From the creation of man, God gave us the brain to THINK critically and held us responsible for our actions from the very beginning of the human race. The true genuine nature of God demands and expects rational thinking of his created humans.

In Islam, Allah (Muslim God) demands believers (Muslims) to surrender to him completely and to obey his every command in the Quran in its totality. Allah states in the Quran that everything recorded in the Quran are of his own words. Allah’s unconditional demands in the Quran to his followers are absolute. Muslim scholars of more then 200 Islamic sects, agree, confirm and believe this is absolutely true, and it is mandatory to obey Allah’s commands in the Quran, with no reservation of any kind by every Muslim. (No ‘buts’ allowed).

01. The Quran is a book of an imperfect scripture (with errors, contradictions, stupidities, historical inaccuracies and with only 114 chapters against the Bible’s 1,179 chapters). The chapters of the Quran are not arranged in importance, continuity, sacredness, biography, chronology, significance or sequence of any sort, but are arranged simply by length - the longest chapter, followed by the next longest chapter and the last chapter with just 6 lines. Verses are disorderly arranged and jumbled up in unrelated subjects/topics. Christians will be horrified to know that there is no prophecy, no chronology, no geography, no biography of anybody (not even Muhammad), no ministry, no history, no proverbs, no parables, no miracles, no psalms, no sequence of any sort in the Quran; and generally is just do’s and don’t, like an instruction book of a vacuum cleaner; and with punitive punishments, reprisals and rewards specified. In stark contrast, the Bible is the only religious scripture in this entire world (which contains everything the Quran does not have, as mentioned above, and which begins chronologically with the creation of this universe and the human race; and ends with the universe and the human race. No other religious Scripture, anywhere in this world, can categorically state such a Complete Testimony of the universe and the human race and that too in an accurate chronological setting from the beginning to the end. The Quran is not a book for the intelligent and the rational thinking person, as I will prove its illogic, fraud and stupidity in the following items, which makes it a fake.

02. In view of Allah’s demand on believers for absolute and unconditional obedience, Allah states categorically, (Sura 33.36) [“And it becometh not a believing man or a believing woman, when Allah and his messenger have decided an affair (for them), that they should (after that) claim any say in their affair; and whoso is rebellious to Allah and his messenger, he verily go astray in error manifest.”] So believers (Muslims) have no right to think independently in their own affairs, because Allah and his messenger have already done the thinking for them, and all the Muslims are required to do is, to just obey (like sheep) their Allah’s words as in the Quran, and becoming totally obedient morons. If Muslims do not obey and follow, they will be considered by Allah as rebellious and face the consequences. But, in the same breath (Sura) Allah also demands Muslims to obey his human messenger (giving equal status as mentioned) with Allah? No other religion on earth demands absolute and unconditional obedience to a human messenger. This is unique only in Islam and defies all logic. In stark contrast, the Christian Bible in the words of the Lord, demand followers to have independent rational thinking and to even test/question/challenge all prophets rationally for the truth. Why shouldn’t Muslims use their God-given brains for independent rational thinking in their own affairs, as the Christians do? Like a magician, once he gets people to believe in his optical illusions, he has complete control of everything he wants people to believe. By taking control of your mind, and getting other believers to force those not in control, is this not depriving Muslims from questioning and leaving Islam if the need be? Either you believe or are forced by believers to conform and hold the grip. Almost everything in Islam is forced upon, with no choices, and against rational thinking people’s will. Exceptional rewards are promised to believers, to keep Muslims within Islam’s grip. Islam is sure a trap with no way out, and if a Muslim tries to get out, will be killed as an apostate (Sura 4:89). Isn’t this why Muslims dare not criticise Muslims who commit murder, bombings, etc? So, with no rational thinking allowed, Islam has proved itself to be a trap. Is this from God or a fake religion?

03. Once someone gets control of believers in an ideology, then it will work its way up, just like communism did; who got control of half the world at one time. People who got thinking rationally, and wise to communism and its propaganda of claims, and it eventually fell to obscurity. Truth always has a way of emerging victorious in the end. In the same light, Allah claims in numerous verses that all Jewish prophets are believers in Islam and ‘confirms’ these Jewish prophets to be ‘Muslims’. But the problem here is that Allah did not say in his Quran, who all these Jewish prophets were, to inform his believers who are in the dark now. There is no complete list of these Jewish prophets, in the Quran; leave alone proof of them being ‘Muslims’; and that too even before the Quran was invented? Are those Jewish prophets who are not mentioned in the Quran, (but mentioned in the Jewish/Christian scriptures) part of Allah’s Scripture or not? And how did these Jewish prophets know about Allah/Islam, when the Quran did not exist yet (which was invented only after (at least) 786 A.D. 154 years after Muhammad was poisoned to death in 632 A.D.; (see “The Invention of Islam”)? Whereas, Jesus was recorded by the Apostles who lived with him (and the Quran/Allah have the cheek to claim the bible is corrupted). There is not a single acceptable historical record of any Jewish Prophet having been a Muslim. Just claiming does not make them ‘Muslims’, does it? Of all the people, Jews/Jewish prophets really accepting Islam? Jews are laughing at these claims, and wondering why Muslims are making claims on Jews (like Abraham, Noah, etc), which even astounds Christians. The Jews are so passionate of their Jewishness that the majority of Jews did not even accept Jesus, a Jew; just because Jesus removed the barbaric Jewish beliefs of the previous era and made it obsolete, which the Muslims have blindly copied and are following, even today. Would the Jews accept Muhammad, an Arab, or any Arab for that matter? It’s not even remotely possible, right? Because of all these, it is a fact that Allah/Quran is lying and Islam is a fake.

04. Allah claims in Sura 3:50 that he revealed the Torah and in Sura 5:48 Allah claims he revealed the Gospel and the Torah. So was Allah revealing to Jesus the Gospel - about his trial in front of Pontius Pilate, whispering in Jesus’ ears of all the happenings around the fourteen Stations of the Cross, about Jesus’ shout to God, the torn temple curtain, the earthquake, the breaking open of graves, the Roman army officer’s response, about the Romans fleeing; and foretelling Jesus in ‘detailed whispers’ of all the numerous events to follow, while Jesus was bleeding in agony? These are all part and parcel of the Gospel. So did Allah reveal this entire Gospel to Jesus as Allah claims? It does sound absurd, ridiculous and plain stupid, doesn’t it? Allah further claims All Jewish/Christian Scriptures came from him, but he mentioned only the Torah and the Gospel in the Quran. The problem here is that the Torah is only 5 out of the thirty-nine books – just 12.8% of the total Jewish Scripture (Judaism counts them as 24 books only, because they join some together in the Tanakh). For the Bible, Allah mentioned just an Injil (Gospel). But there are four Injil (Gospels). In Sura 5:46 Allah clearly claims he revealed the Gospel (Not in the plural form) to Jesus. So which Injil (Gospel) did he refer to? Because the Quran says baby Jesus talked in his cradle, from this, we can assume it was the Gospel of Luke, since only Luke’s gospel described the birth of Christ. But there is a problem here, because less than 10% of this very Gospel is in the Quran. (But the Allah’s ridiculous tale of baby Jesus talking in his cradle – is a laughable joke to Christians?) Even if we take one whole Gospel, from a total of 66 books – it is just 1.5% of the Bible only. The Torah is NOT the Jewish Scripture, but just a very small part; and the Gospel of Luke is NOT the Christian Scripture, but just a tiny part of it. And this Allah has the cheek to claim ALL scriptures of Judaism and Christianity to be in his Quran - Where? (Is it in invisible ink, because I don’t see it in the Quran?) It is no wonder that so little of the Torah and the Gospel of Luke are mentioned in the Quran leaving out most of the prophets from the Bible and that too inaccurately. The Quran is relatively a small scripture book; that one will need three Qurans to transfer everything from one Jewish scripture; leave alone the Bible, which is even more voluminous. It is clear and obvious this Allah doesn’t know ALL the scriptures of Judaism and Christianity, which he falsely claims he revealed, but is obviously lying wholesale, to ignorant Muslims. It is also obvious that only some parts of the Torah and Gospel of Luke were plagiarized/copied. How did Jewish prophets become Muslims in pre-Islamic times and that too before the Quran was invented is a ridiculous claim? If this Allah is God, shouldn’t he have known all this? So, isn’t this Allah not a God – but a fake; a non-existent creation of Muhammad? Since Allah is a fake, doesn’t it confirm that Islam is a fake?

05. In Islamic Sects, a religious structure does not exist or even specified anywhere in the Quran, Hadiths or Sunna. Unlike Christian Sects, who all have a proper structural hierarchy with leaders/representatives? But in Islam, the Sunni sect, has no leader for all Sunni followers or the Shia (Shiite) for all their followers, and so forth. Why did Allah leave this state of chaos in Islam? Couldn’t he have anticipated or foretold that Muslims will end up killing (even in mosques) each other from different sects, like it is happening now in Indonesia, Bangla Desh, Pakistan, Afghanistan, Iraq, Iran, Saudi Arabia, Turkey, Egypt, Morocco, Tunisia, Algeria, etc. Why did Allah fail to see this happening? Even if Allah failed, why couldn’t and do not Muslims themselves get together to have a leader/representative? A Sunni Muslim cannot even lead/represent/talk for all Sunnis. Why cann’t Muslims solve this problem, even today? Let me tell you why – because Islam is a fake.

06. Arabs in front of the Kaaba in Mecca, were initially facing it for all prayers in pre-Islamic times. Arabs beyond did not have to, as per the Hindu practice of respect. (As for facing the Kaaba - the Hindus always show respect in facing their respected/venerated as it was in pre-Islamic times). Then comes Allah demanding ALL Muslims to face only Jerusalem instead, for all Muslim prayers (as in Sura 2:142-145). Hundreds of years later, Allah changed his mind and demanded all Muslims to face only the Kaaba to pray, all over again, when the Quran was finally invented. During the time the Muslims were facing Jerusalem, the Muslims in between these two cities were showing their backsides to the Kaaba. Why did Muslims disrespect the Kaaba in this way on Allah’s orders? Was Allah’s first command wrong? Why was this Allah so fickle minded? Why should All worldwide Muslims, face the Kaaba to pray in the first place? Or for that matter if God is everywhere, why face only in one direction to pray? Is Allah squatting only in the Kaaba? How did this come about? From pre-Islamic rituals - In Hinduism it is disrespectful not to face someone/something in holiness or to a person in high regard, like a king, parents, grandparents, etc when in communication (See “the Invention of Islam”). Thus, Hindus who are in front, face them in respect, - never the back towards them. See next item.

07. In sura 15:19 Allah says that the Earth is flat (and not a sphere) “ the earth spread out (like a carpet)” and to drum this “scientific Islamic theory of a flat earth” into the believers (Muslims), it is also repeated in 20:53 as a bed, & 43:10 as a resting place, & 78:6 as an expanse, & 84:3 spread out, & 88:20 spread. As if that is not enough stupidity, Allah goes further and confirms in Sura 18:87 the sun sets everyday in a muddy spring water on the earth, and people living there. How one would get a huge sun to land on such a relatively tiny planet like earth, sends all logic out the window. The burning fires of the Sun (thousands of degrees centigrade) will set the whole earth into a ball of fire and disintegrate it in just a millisecond, even before it gets within 1 Million Kilometers of earth. Where this spherical world has “its setting-place”, defies all logic and is sheer stupidity by this Allah, or is it actually this Muhammad speaking that Sura, on his behalf? The sun being a ball of fire and cannot even come a little bit closer, does not seem to have dawned on this Allah YET, since the Quran is meant for all time, so technically, even now Allah thinks the earth is flat and the sun sets everyday on earth. This Allah thought he was cleverer than the Hindus and decided to be one up on them and made it compulsory for ALL the Muslims to face the Kaaba to pray (or was it this Muhammad, actually?). And why not, he thought; since he imagined the world is as flat as a carpet and a bed. But when the world is a sphere as it actually is, the Muslims have ended facing the outer space instead, due to this Allah’s stupidity, and it makes a mockery of all believers (Muslims) trying to strain their necks round the spherical world. This has become a comic of errors with Muslims straining everyday (5 times each day) to face the Kaaba and failing to do so. So isn’t Allah a fake, especially, if he ‘claims’ he created it? Or is it Muhammad and his cronies, who actually invented the Quran, who not only thought the earth is flat, but his other “Scientific Islamic theory” of the Sun revolving round the earth in sura 39:5 – how ‘scientific’ all this Allah’s Quranic knowledge sounds, especially to the nut-cases? With so many illogical and stupid verses in the Quran, I cannot imagine anyone saying that Islam is from a true God. In other words, Islam is a fake.

08. The Quran was at the least, a minimum of 154 years in the making, AFTER Muhammad died (In the maximum - it could have even been hundreds of years in the making –see the Invention of Islam). But what is known for sure; is that there were many people involved and coined verses; in the making of the Quran (Muhammad and his 700 companions, Muhammad’s wives, concubines, temporary wives, slaves, relatives, friends, scribes – (at least one was a Christian, who the Arabs accused of inventing the Quran for Muhammad), two caliphs, and Zayed Ibn Thabit who compiled, recompiled and re-recompiled, and edited and reedited and even withdrew the initially distributed Qurans under Abu Bakr, and had them burnt. Is it because Satan had a hand in the making of the Quran as admitted in Sura 22:52? How much is Satan’s part in this Quran is left to the One True God? Wasn’t Allah strong enough to thwart Satan’s work in the very first instance? All this is confirmed as proof, by none other than Allah himself, in his own words, in the Quran. In Sura 2.106 Allah clearly states [“Such of Our revelations as We abrogate (cancel)(Naskh) or cause to be forgotten, we bring (in place) one better or the like thereof. Knowest thou not that Allah is Able to do all things.”] Now if this Allah ‘is able to do all things’, then why didn’t this Allah get it right the very first time, (as the Christian Bible) instead of canceling and replacing lots of Sura? Why did this Allah write a sura and then replace it with a better sura? By replacing with a better sura, Allah is admitting all his initial sura were not ‘better’? And what does “cause to be forgotten” got to do with canceling and replacing some sura? As if this is not deceitful enough; Allah has to repeat this deceit in Sura 16:101 saying, [“And when we put a revelation in place of (another) revelation, - And Allah knoweth best what He revealeth – they say: Lo! Thou art but inventing. Most of them know not.”] So it is obvious from this Sura, that there were Arabs already saying this is a deceitful inventing, right? So even the Arab people of Muhammad’s time knew Islam is (artificially) being invented. If “Allah knoweth best” his words sure don’t show it by his own admissions? Even Allah doesn’t dismiss all of those Arabs who saw through this deceit, but says only “most of them”, he doesn’t say ‘all of them’, does he? That leaves Allah to admit to some of the Arabs, of his deceitful and fake Islam. Why did this Allah waste so much time writing, canceling, rewriting; writing, replacing, rewriting, - did this Allah have nothing else useful to do? Or is it not a ‘God’ who is admitting all this, but just an ordinary man, as this self-appointed prophet (with no witnesses to his prophetship) of Islam or is it all the other people who had a hand in the making of the Quran? I know why these admissions were made because; people knew the Quran was changed and corrupted from the initially distributed Qurans and some admission became necessary to justify its corruption and changes. So Islam confirms itself to be a fake by its own admissions. What more is there to say, except to agree with the Quran’s own admissions, that Islam is corrupted and changed, making it a fake.

09. As you already know in item 4, Allah claimed that it was he who revealed the Jewish and Christian Scriptures to the Jews/Christians. But, in Sura 2:159 Allah says, [“Those who hide the proofs and the Guidance which We had made it clear in the Scriptures: such are accursed of Allah and accursed of those who have the power to curse.”] Now there are a lot of questions here unanswered with this Sura. 1. Why did Allah want the scriptures he supposedly gave to the Jews/Christians? 2. If Allah was indeed a God, couldn’t he, by just flicking his fingers, taken the scriptures back? 3. Were the Jews and Christians so powerful to hide their scriptures from this Allah? 4. In the same tone, was Allah so weak in comparison with the Jews/Christians? 5. Since he claims, it is he who gave the Scriptures, isn’t there anything left of it, in his memory? 6. What kind of a God is this Allah, if the Jews and Christians can hide something from him? 7.Why is this Allah cursing the Jews/Christians for hiding their own scriptures? 8. If this Allah “made it clear” surely he should be able to reproduce it, instead of cursing. Or did he want it to plagiarize/copy in full into the Quran? So who is this powerless Allah? Is it this Muhammad himself who is saying all this? Whatever the answers, and whether it is Allah or Muhammad speaking, it surely, without a doubt, indicates that Islam is a fake. Probably, who ever was inventing this Quran, might not have been able to proceed properly without plagiarizing/copying from the Jews/Christians. Like in Sura 2:140, [“Or say ye that Abraham and Ismael, and Isaac, and Jacob, or the tribes were Jews and Christians? Do ye know best, or doth Allah? And who is more unjust than he who hideth a testimony, which he had received from Allah? Allah is not unaware of what ye do.”] Here again Allah/Muhammad is threatening the Jews and Christians for hiding their own testimony (Scriptures)(Hiding scripture also repeated in 3:187). Why do they need the scriptures if not to copy into the Quran? So by killing and wiping out the Jews and Christians in Saudi Arabia, there ended a situation, with no one with knowledge or possession of the Scriptures of the Jews and the Christians. So Muhammad’s savage misdeeds backfired on him for his new religion and he paid the price for it. But, think about it, the possibility would have been there, when Muhammad and his 700 companions raided innocent Jewish and Christian Villages and robbed their properties, there could have been the Jewish and Christian Scriptures among them. Can you imagine what would have happened if they did manage to copy/plagiarize everything into the Quran (other than the Quran being bloated 10 times in volume). It is very unlikely, that the more than 150,000 Jews and Christians living in Saudi Arabia before Muhammad, would not have had their scriptures with them. The irony is that none of Muhammad and his companions could read or write – So even seeing them, would not have known, that what they were looking for all along, was destroyed by their own hands by the spirit of our Lord’s intervention, so burying Islam as a fake cult to the stupidity it contains, today.

10. The Muslims are quick to condemn the Jewish and Christian scriptures as changed and corrupted. This theory has been laughed at, mocked, made fun of, scorned and condemned in the Maddrassahs by Muslims for Muslims. But when one questions a Muslim clergy what part or the specifics of the corruption, they suddenly fall into a trance and become instantly dumb. Their clergy, to cover up the mistakes/contradictions and stupidities in the Quran, tell almost all Muslims this theory in their Islamic education from childhood and repeated and repeated over and over again. This is to keep the Muslims from giving up Islam, if they knew the truth of the Quran being changed and corrupted. The best way of defense is to go on the offensive, right? To cover up the Quran’s corruption, what better way, to lie and condemn the others in defense of their Allah? So the Muslims shamelessly perpetuate this lie, time after time with no proof of any Jewish and Christian Scripture’s corruption. The Quran states in Sura 10:64-65, [“Those who believe and keep their duty (to Allah). Theirs are good tidings in the life of the world and in the Hereafter – There is no changing in the words of Allah (in the Quran) – That is the supreme Triumph.”] No changing in the words of Allah? Lets look at another verse; in Sura 6:34, [“… There is none to alter the decisions of Allah.”] Allah goes further and commands Muhammad in Sura 10:95, [“And is thou (Muhammad) art in doubt concerning that which We reveal unto thee, then question those (Christians) who read the scripture (that was) before thee (Bible). So be not thou of the waverers.”] >From this Sura we can see that Allah is asking Muhammad to ask Christians, whenever, he is in doubt about the Quran. So here you have a so-called ‘prophet’ who is told by a so-called God, to learn from ordinary Christians, to clear his doubts. So what kind of a ‘prophet’ is this Muhammad, when even Allah wants him to seek the Christians’ help for Islam? Now we come to the coup de grace for the faux pas. In the Arabic Quran, Sura 27:91, reads [“I am commanded only to serve the Lord of this land which he had Hallowed, and unto him all things belong. And I am commanded to be of those who surrender.”] Now if all the words in the Quran are from Allah, then ‘I’ refers to Allah. So the Question is, who has commanded Allah according to this sura? And is this Allah serving a Lord? If this Sura is true, then Allah is not God, because a True God does not have to serve anyone, right? Why then is the Quran declaring Allah is not a God? Obviously, this proves Allah is a fake, which makes the Quran/Islam a fake. I must also point out that the most recognized English translation (recognized by the OIC) is the M.M. Pickthall Quran. He must have been horrified to recognize this corruption in the Quran and he cleverly tried to cover this up, by adding the word ‘Say’ as though Allah is telling Muhammad to say and Muhammad’s name in brackets, to imply as though, “(Say): I (Muhammad) am commanded only to serve the Lord…” But M.M. Pickthall was not clever enough for his deceit to cover up for Allah. Because if it is Muhammad speaking, then it would contradict Sura 10:65 and Sura 6:34 as mentioned above; wherein Allah says his words in the Quran cannot be changed. And in Sura 10:39 [“Or say they: He hath invented it? Say: then bring a surah like unto it, and call on all ye can beside Allah, if ye are truthful.”] This Sura confirms that only Allah speaks in the Quran. For the skeptics, let me give another example as in 19:64, [“We come not down save by commandment of thy Lord. Unto him belongeth all that is before us and all that is behind us and all that is between those two, and thy Lord was never forgetful – “]. M.M. Pickthall solved this problem in the Quran by deceitfully adding the word ‘angels’ in brackets, thus; [“We (angels) come not down save by commandment of thy Lord…”] But the problem is that it is confirming the Angels are the ones speaking in the Quran, right? This completely changed the connotation/dynamics of this Sura. The question here needs answering, is the Quran only the words of Allah, or is it a free for all, to state their views? As there are a number of Angels, Muhammad, Allah, etc speaking in the Quran, right? Or if Allah was the speaker of these Sura, then it is wrong, as he is not the God he claimed to be. If someone else is speaking these Sura, it is also wrong, because then the words in the Quran are not ONLY from Allah, as claimed by the Quran. It is a catch-22 situation, where the Muslim scholars cannot deny neither solve. The Muslims are themselves, trapped with so many of such sura in the Quran. Either way or whichever way, one interprets these Sura; the fact remains THE QURAN IS CORRUPTED/CHANGED, AND SO IS ISLAM/ALLAH A FAKE. This is an undeniable truth. These numerous deceits in Islam, especially when perpetrated on its own believers (Muslims) are despicable, false, wicked, shameful, disgraceful and plain EVIL. All these prove without a doubt, ISLAM IS CORRUPTED AND A FAKE. I rest my case.

]]> http://th3g1vr.wordpress.com/?p=215 Sun, 06 Jul 2008 22:20:34 +0000 th3g1vr http://th3g1vr.wordpress.com/?p=215 What distinguishes the truths of logic and emotion? A few months ago, I realized that logic and emotion are two types of truths that are irreconcilable. Because I did not know why they were so much at odds, I took into account the possibility of other types of truth existing. While this might still be the case, I've concluded that the vast majority of truth falls under these two. In either case, I have gotten my answer, and it begins with Sigmund Freud's Id and Ego.

Id >> emotion; is the source of "faith", "passion, "fear", "happiness", etc.

Ego >> logic; is the source of "reasoning", "habits", "planning", etc.

What is key here is the connection to happiness: Hapiness is an emotion- thus, if one tries to validate or measure it, it will immediately be corrupted, because such actions would fall under reasoning. Happiness, after all, cannot be reasoned- it is in fact unreasonable, and thus illogical. (I have wondered about the difference between logic and reasoning, and I do not actually know [haven't researched it yet], but since logic is a much older concept, I'm assuming that logic is the parent of reasoning. Thus, all reasoning is logic, but not all logic is reasoning. Compare to bug-insect relationship). Thus, the Ego is corrupting the Id, by treading this forbidden ground.

As I said in my Forgotten post, there is a Bible verse, attributed to Jesus- Matthew 6:3 “But when you do a charitable deed, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing.” I've thought of a good variation of this verse that makes for a good summary of the above: "do not let your Ego know what your Id is doing.”

Question: would pride fall under "Ego" or "Id" ? My first "instinct" (lol you'll get the pun as you read on) is that pride is Id, because- at least apparently, pride is not logical. Well, I'm pretty confident with that answer, so I'll go with that. so, FTR: "pride is Id, because pride is not logical."

After coming to these conclusions (independently of pre-existing thought) It dawned on me that a very famous man (who lived a long time ago) would agree with me- Aristotle. To quote from my philosophy book, "Discursive reasoning is the basis of the natural sciences but also provides a way of understanding ourselves and our everyday lives. But Aristotle believed that there is an entirely different kind of thinking that is at times necessary, namely, intuition. Intuition is an immediate, direct seeing of a certain truth. God's existence and nature can be roughly intimated as the cause of the natural world. But a deeper, more compelling comprehension of god requires intuition"

Right now I realized another important facet- explaining the relationship between Ego and logic, and between Id and intuition: Ego and Id are (obviously not knowledge themselves.

Ego is the source of logically-derived knowledge

Id is the source of intuitively-derived knowledge.

Thus, intuition is using instinct to derive knowledge, and the knowledge acquired using this method falls under intuition. This also explains Aristotle's reasoning regarding the three souls. Aristotle believed that humans have three souls: the vegetative (plant) soul, the animal soul, and the nous, or rational soul. I was confused by this, because it would imply that intuition does not derive from instinct, since animals also have instincts but lack intuition (not being rational). Intuition, as Aristotle saw it, was necessary to experience God (as explained in the quote above). But Aristotle contended only the rational soul can experience God. While at first these premises appear to contradict, I now understand:

The third soul refers to knowledge, and derivation thereof. While the animal has instincts, they cannot derive knowledge from those instincts, lacking a third soul and thus intuition. This definitely accords with the Id, which being pure desire, knows that it "wants", and "wants now", but does not know what it wants. This also recognizes the relationship between instinct and Id- which again, is "all Id is instinct", but not all instinct is Id". Animals, after all, could not survive if they were pure Id. When intuition (knowledge derived from Id, which in turn is derived from instinct) is applied, the Id gains access to the transcendental aspects of the nous. But the Ego, being derived directly from the nous, has a more intimate connection with trancendental aspects.

Perhaps this offers insight into why emotions and intuition are unstable, inconsistent, and even contradictory. While logic and reasoning can sometimes be so also, to a far less extent. Also important is that intuition, despite having a less direct connection to the nous, is essential to have a mystical experience (experiencing God). I think the reason for this is that intuition effectively unifies the two otherwise different souls, allowing us the nexus necessary for such an experience.

Question: Why is happiness corrupted but emotions, such as fear, are forgotten? This question is due to a misconception. Happiness is corrupted because it is challenged, as Ego attempts to measure it and validate it through reasoning. When I "forgot" fear by deeming it as illogical, it was not challenged, but ignored. A good analogy of this is the results of different psychological approaches when dealing with people. If a person were to try to tell me how "happy" was was, I'd likely be angry, defensive, and have all sorts of mixed feelings. If someone told me I was happy, even then I would have mixed feelings, both positive and negative. But, if I were to ask that same person a question, they "pretended I didn't exist" (regardless of what their "reason" was), eventually it would be as if I didn't, because I would find that my efforts in asserting my existence were a waste of time and effort. The same applies to the interaction between the Id and Ego.

This post is the conclusion to a post I wrote a long time ago, appropriately titled Racism (appropriately because, at least superficially, that post makes me look very racist(!)- so I guess this post is partly to clear up any misconceptions that I have anything against black people, which I don't, and expose my true feeling regarding them, and if possible without excessive stereotyping (oops too late :P)

I actually sent an email to someone (who I initially thought was black--well technically I still don't know, but intuition tells me they're not) which perfectly captures the gist of what I'm trying to get across in this post, so I'll just indulge in my already over-used practice of copying directly from the email, with essentially no editing.

"FTR, I consider blacks unfortunate. They are violent and sexual tendencies in their genetics, but it was not always this way. Throughout history, they were targeted for thousands of years, by various nations and empires for slavery. This resulted in several generations of interbreeding, prioritizing physique, endurance, and all other qualities suited for hard labor. This resulted in handicaping the other genes, which also in turn criples African cultures, and thus countries and their descendents, beyond repair.

I feel pity for blacks. they are mankind's greatest sin, and America is paying for it right now, with the blacks ultimately suffering most, because they cannot help the way they are. Genetics is, after all, the most difficult thing to oppose, and add to that a corrupt background and culture- living successfully is nearly impossible for most.

but if anything, it proves that at least one Biblical prophesy is right :-)"

So yeah, to clarify on that: Africans were slaves long before America, or even (civilized) Europe existed. Ironically, everything seems to point to their origin as slaves as being after they (in Egypt) enslaved Hebrews.

Well, I don't know much about African history outside Egypt (should do research), and it's more than likely that they enslaved their own kind long before Abraham even encountered them, let alone Moses. But it cannot be ignored that Egypt, the country once holding the title of most advanced and largest empire in the world (for over 1000 years) ended up (indirectly) regressing into slavery after a few generations of using Hebrews for slave labor.

God said the Hebrews would never find peace again until the end of times)- and if anything that prophesy was an understatement (read:Holocaust). well, that's a bit of a detour from this post though.

As I'll introduce in my post Karma, I believe in miracles, although they IMO do not [necessarily] come from God, but are likely the universe's failsafe mechanism when the balance of things is threatened. Therefore I think that miracles must happen to Africans that will make up for their struggles (as our sin). I think they have happened, in the form of African leaders such as "Martin Luther King Jr." or George Washington Carver" or perhaps even "Akeelah" (or whatever her real name is- only know her name in the movie "Akeelah and the Bee". (lol BTW Akila is an Egyptian female name meaning "intelligent". Cool!)

Well, perhaps these might not be miracles, but Karma does find a way- that is something I am sure of. I believe that American, and perhaps other countries, are paying this debt, having enjoyed technologies, wealth, food, and luxuries that we should not, and these things were largely the product of manipulating African borns, and other minorities (our corporations are still manipulating Third-World countries- abusing their impoverished state) Now we have a crime rate that is far greater than any country, and when we consider what we have gained through war, slavery, and capitalism- it's not that surprising that our sins caught up with us while we're kicking back in high places. (you'll probably have to click on the link to get the joke- it's an irony-loaded pun) Especially ironic is the fact the Africans are the ones doing the payback- and they're not doing it on purpose (honestly what kind of happiness could people get out of that?)- but out the "ill-bred" (another pun) that Americans, and their ancestors, gave them. How appropriate is that!?!

One final point that I noticed is that our circumstances, and the Karma-oriented reasoning I'm presenting, is shockingly similar to the very premise presented in the 2000 film Unbreakable. It was directed by M. Night Shyamalan- I gotta remember that name- a lot of good movies (IMO) were directed by him. To the point:

A little history: In the movie, two twins are born, but one is fair-skinned, strong, "unbreakable" (as demonstrated in several freak-accidents) a sense of justice so strong that he can literally hear people calling for help when crimes occur. His only weakness is water, which he essentially collapses under the pressure of, perhaps eventually melting (although this never occurs in the movie, obviously). The other twin- is dark-skinned, and has bones so hollow that just walking too long, or getting bumped- will cause him to potentially break several bones. Out of a bittersweet and confused mix between fidelity and jealousy, he wrecks havoc, both to reunite with his brother, and out of the helpless belief that he is destined to be a villain, just as his serendipitous brother was destined to be a hero. I think this was a genius idea for the writer(s), as it makes for a magnificent metaphor of the permeation of sacrifice in every aspect of life, and, more controversially, the fact that Americans, like the protagonist of "Unbreakable", live in the luxury they due as the result and at the expense of the deteriation of the African race, having descended from slaves that were abused both genetically and culturally, so that we may live in the sinful luxury we do now. Of course, I do not believe in sin morally (as I said in my Evil post) but I do believe in it as the negative energy of Karma.

Super smart. Sexy. Loves guns. Works on her own cars and trucks. Drives an 18 wheeler. Has a nice sword collection and a geek at heart. And like myself, a Star Wars fanatic.

And at one time while on the old bolt.com format, she was a Suicide Girl.

Yesh, I still have the hots for her.

I think, back on bolt, 80% of the male population drooled over her.

As for me, I just like smart women.

That look hot and exude an attitude about themselves.

Yeah. That.

I think ... maybe I just like women with attitude cuz they have a certain confidence about themselves.

She makes my groin do strange things.

I dunno. I'm rambling. Random thoughts and schtuff.

And she's Irish, which is another plus cuz my friend, Caitriona from Cork, has that same attitude.

Maybe its just attitude, then.

What more could a guy want? Happy Fourth of July! :twisted:

I've come to the conclusion that the longer I work in the mental health / psych profession, the more blunt and less sociable I become. This isn't good when talking to 'normal' people who have no mental illness.

I've come to this realization cuz I had to do an admit on a cycling bipolar woman = she was freaking out going from sad to happy to depressed and bawling her head off about not getting her meds. A majority of the other patients were in the day room across from where I was admitting the woman on to the unit.

Woman: When are you people going to give me my goddam cardiac meds? I've been in the ER since one o'clock and if I don't have my meds, let's just forget about this and take me back to there!

Me: Um, what's your name?

Woman: Alexis! Goddammit! [raising her voice]

Me: Well listen, Alexis. My name is Alain. And since you're in another part of the hospital, you need to chill because it does not work that way. You are here because you tried to kill yourself. And once you're on this locked unit, freaking out is ok to a point. But if you freak out and lose control of your actions, you will be restrained and that's not a pretty sight. First of all, you need to calm down!

The other patients, who were laughing and chatting to whatever they were doing, I heard the room become silent. They began to gather around the door frame to the sitch at hand. I turned towards them and said, "This is none of your concern" and gave them the grmacing look I'm so famous for. After admitting the hysterical woman, I returned to whatever I was doing ... eating my lunch. Then an annoying, needy patient wanted linen. So we walked down the long dark creepy hallway to get his shit.

Patient: And how's your night going, Alain? [I detected sarcasm]

Me: Fine. And yours?

Patient: You know I can be an asshole too. [He was hinting that he can go off cuz I didn't give him seconds when he asked for it. And then called me, "food nazi"]

Me: Yeah well. So can I.

Patient: I know you are.

Me: Why, thank you!

A few hours later the same patient asks me a question.

Patient: Oh Alain, can you wake me up at 5:30 in the morning?

Me: Well lemme step outside and check out the name of this building to see if its called the Hilton. Junnoliek, I don't think we cater to psych patients. Imagine that. In fact, its not in policy to offer room service.

Patient: Please?

Me: Maybe ... NOT.

The guy wanted to get up that early so he can have his Dilaudid med = synthetic heroin. He had a plan to bother the med nurse for his meds on the hour, who said, "Golly, you're so cut and dry."

I think i'm beginning to ENJOY THE HELL out of my job. :twisted:

I've never given it much thought cuz on the Internetz, I can be whomever I want and no one would question me UNLESS they really wanted to dig that deep into my psyche. And that's a really dark place.

This dawned on me when I had to orient a new staff member to our unit. I work in Behavioral Health where we mostly work with people who have addictions and polysubstance abuse. Our facility is actually for the SMI (severely mentally ill), but we get all kinds from those who want to kill themselves to people that want to blow up the Washington Monument cuz they think it represents a giant penis: this guy actually thought that when the cops brought him in for a psych eval. He had a high BAL and needed to be detoxed. He went back to jail after his enjoyable stay at our hospital.

Anyway, as I was giving the new staff, Daniella, a tour of the facility and our seclusion and restraints room, I kept getting winks from my other coworkers.

Lydia: Stop hitting on that girl.

Me: What? Get outta here.

Lydia: She's just a girl. You know she's younger than you. Don't you have a girlfriend?

Me: Yeah, but what's that got to do with anything? I'm just showing her around.

Lydia: What else are you going to show her? Just think, when you were 20, she was being born.

GGAAHH

The girl was button cute as hell: about 5'4, thick wavy black hair, (34b :twisted ), of Italian heritage and a warm friendly personality. The more I started in with the 21 questions, the more she opened up. Just general chit chatting. I asked if she's ever worked in a psych unit; what she wants to do while she's here, what her career plans were. General bullshit.

Daniella said she was scared of scary movies. I asked if she was superstitious and eased her into the conversation of ghosts and the paranormal. I told her about the ghostly nun who's been seen by several staff members and myself, emphasizing that the ghost watches over me in particular. My coworkers noticed that also, so it wasn't just me.

I was her preceptor (person to shadow), so she followed all night as I was signing off her NEO manual on the tasks she had to do. The charge nurse and the other two staff later told me that I was blatantly hitting on her. Pppfftt. General bullshit to get to know the person. Then I threw in; "So if you get scared real easily, you just grab the shit out of your boyfriend or husband?"

Dani: Nope. No boyfriend, no husband.

Me: Why? Don't take this personally, but me as a guy, I think you're very attractive. I'm surprised you don't have guys dropping around you left and right. Either that, or you're a lesbian.

Dani: Why thank you, and I'm not a lesbian. In between school and work, I just don't get out much. My last boyfriend cheated on me and I never gave him another chance after the second time. So, how old are you?

Me: I'm older than you.

Dani: 25?

Me: Nope.

Dani: 27?

Me: Not even close. Good guess though.

Dani: 30? 34? 37?

Me: Nah. I could be your father. I'm 42, youngun.

I instantly saw an image of Vader reaching out to Skywalker flash before my eyes.

Dani: You are not! You are so full of shit, Alain. Where's your driver's license.

Me: I don't carry my wallet with me. Why, how old are you?

Dani: I'm 20. I'll be 21 next month.

Me: Twenty?? Holee shit!! You're just a baby!

Dani: I don't believe you're that old. Stop playing! C'mon. Go get your license.

Then there was a disturbance in the tv room and my coworkers de-escalated the sitch. Even a random stranger thinks I'm full of shit when I reveal my age.

Time flies when you're having fun!

I still hurt in my back, but at least I can bend over.

And I did 200 push ups last night ... just to stay awake for my shift. And I've been emailing Hilary -- my replacement at the dayshift service coordinator, since we've been running out of forms at night. She says she likes getting my emails when she turns on her puter at work. I just email her my barbaric rants about how nothing gets done even though we aren't overbudgeted like some of the departments.

I wonder what it would've been like to be an Egyptian back in ancient times ... running around naked in public, especially in the royals' court. As a palace guard, you allowed to get a hard on seeing all those naked woment?

Yeah, YOU. I know you don't like that name, starting a new life without your asshole ex, and all that, but I just have to say it. You know how I'm usually staring at your ass at work. Even though we work opposite shifts, I just want to tell you that you're so fucking fine ... to a point.

Anyway, thanks for covering my ass this morning when I missed the mandatory staff meeting we were all supposed to attend. Thanks for that. And thanks for telling me that Lori wanted to see the "speeding ticket" that I used to give an excuse to. Its like, just when I think I got it made, you have to be the bringer of bad news. I'll just tell Lori that I forgot to bring it to work and mailed it off as soon as I got home. I think she knows I'm full of shit. I think our own department head knows I will lie my ass off just to get out of a staff meeting. So ... I'm depending on you, yes YOU, my dear friend with a high toned body, to back me up when I have to go in front of her. And if you do so, I'll do all your SLPs that you've not started on.

Even though you don't have a phone, you do read my blog and this is the only way I can think of letting you know that I appreciate you. (And you're hot eye candy MILF too). I'd send you email thru our work program, but that's linked to sysadmin progs that I really don't want staff to know. You're one backwards woman ... how can you not have a cellphone? Oh yeah, I forgot. You're not computer literate and inanimate objects scare you.

But I can see your point in wanting to hide offline and be anonymous and all that. The way your ex did you, is probably the same way I'd avoid anything electronic. I didn't think people could be that evil. At least you have your kids. So yeah. If you see this, you have my eternal gratitude ... but that's not saying much for what its worth.

My first music video ... chillaxin with Dr. Girlfriend and company at a reggae festy in Washington.

Rugrats are sort of ... edible. Lots of protein in this one. No babies were tortured or eaten in filming this video. I was tempted, but I kept my cannibalistic urges at bay.

YEIGH.

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